Spring has Sprung

Here we are again welcoming Spring, the Easter Bunny and Easter this Sunday.  Mike and Hiroko will celebrate their fifth anniversary on March 27.  Baby Ken is walking more and more each day but often resorts to crawling.  He really is a willful little boy and gets easily insulted when we try to divert him from one activity or handling something that we want to get away from him.  He has four top teeth and four bottom and two 1st year molars.  He sure knows how to curl his lip to move from happy little boy to wounded and so hurt.  How can such a young human being learn so quickly to play on our sympathy and make us feel guilty for calling his bluff.  He has us fascinated and "gobsmacked".
Kent has, after three months finalized the negotiations for M and H's new Condo in Waikiki.  What an ordeal.  The contract from Hell.  The mainland bank and brokers were inefficient, strung them along and dilly dallied in their negotiations.  The aggravation is behind all of us now and many lessons learned.  Our son and daughter are making headway with renovations, a new 12' mirrored closet, doorway through to the bedroom from kitchen, thanks to Dave Hafele.  Ripped out cabinets on one kitchen wall and designing a 16' transition from Kitchen to Living room design.  Wow, it is so fun, yet exhausting doing all the running and planning.  I really should have been a designer.  So creative my juices do flow!  I need to keep the bit in my mouth and pull back on my own reins.  Their house, Bonnie!!!!!!
Benjamin may continue his employment with Oceanic or not.  The next four month bid leaves him with a split four hours on four off and four on again.  Saturdays and Sundays off.  It is a terrible schedule and torture.  Longs is openeing in July.  He could easily start with them and not have the long drive.  Money saved at the get go.  Life ain't fair.
I am having my WLS on Wednesday the 3rd of April.  I am hopeful for a great and sustained succesful outcome.  My overall health will improve if I survive.  No kidding, there is that risk.  I love my family and am so thankful for all of them, the lessons I have learned by being Kent's wife, Matthew's mother.  Benjamin my precious son who is so bright and capable and a square peg in a round hole.  There must be a square hole in this world somewhere for him.  He is brilliant in so many areas and has not found a fit for himself.  Mike who has accomplished a lot with his education also and thankfully can teach flight students.  I love my sweet natured and rosy baby boy who always had a smile on his face when he wakened in the morning.  Both degreed and both not working in their fields as the pilots they dreamed of being.  Matt will find his way through this earth life, but regrettably not in the fold of our family's love and concern.  He does not care for our way of life and the way we think or function.  He is content in his own realm and we in ours and I think we all finally figured out that never the twain will meet, again.  He needs to know that he was loved with all that I had to give and I never wished him or perpetrated any ill upon him.  I hope that someday he will come to know that truth and believe that.  His mind has been poisoned by an evil doer.
Baby Ken is baby Benjamin reincarnate.  Amazing genetic mix.  When I love him and hold him he feels like the baby Benjamin that was so darling.  I am so lucky to have been able to have three uniquely individual sons.  I love you all, and my most darling Kent.  How could God have blessed me so.  Even with all our differences and trials, I adore you, you are so precious to me and I feel that I am in the arms of my Heavenly Father when I am with you.  We were saved for each other, I believe that with all my heart.  Please forgive me for all the angst and disruption I have caused in your life.  I know you would have been so content with a simpler wife.  I never could have survived this life without you.  I hope that I have contributed in some positive ways to your growth and experiential range.  It has been an exciting run.  Thank you for loving me enough to risk the roller coaster ride.
I don't mean for this to sound like an ending, but hopefully a new beginning.  Renewed health and vitality will be ours in a few months when I am able to exercise and swim and walk and change the way we eat.  So with this long letter, I will add more in a while, probably in mid April.
Sayonara!